“Ill do it tomorrow”
“It is not that bad”
“Nothing bad will happen”
Caring for the world takes plenty of strength. Passion for the journey is magical. But what happens if the world rejects your care and the journey is blocked by huge obstacles that just wont shift?
Being the strong person for everyone doesn’t always help your cause. In fact, when I sat there wandering why I manifested madness and why karma was coming to me so quickly; i realized that the only real way to deal with the world is to step back and focus on myself.
I had been so strong for everyone else that receiving the news of my own health set me back further than I have ever been. I cried. Wanting the noise of those people tearing me apart over me not caring for myself to stop, it didn’t make sense. Why do I feel so crappy. I do look after myself… I look after myself and everyone else and don’t expect anything in return.
The moment of truth… was that exACT moment that I realized that it is all for nothing. There no point in looking out for the world if my perception of this world is that it is in need of fixing.
We are all perfect.
Just the way we are.
Always and forever.